The stress of the holidays is real guys, and I don’t think it will ever go away. As wonderful and memorable as the holidays are, I find that Christmas is the holiday that cranks up my anxiety and my OCD into maximum overdrive, and the more children that you have, the more anxious one can become. I’ve always had a fear of my children coming down the stairs on Christmas morning and not having that “wow” factor on their faces. I don’t know exactly why, but it is on my mind every day from the first of December until December 26th. Every year I’m told I go “overboard” with the gifts, but my mind feels more scattered than it usually does, with the “Did I buy enough”, “Did I forget anybody”, “What else can I get (insert name)”, yada yada yada. And each day that passes, I get more worried. I know that I have boxes to ship out, but will they get there in time? Along with “I think my address got taken off the world map” because about 6 items that I ordered ( some the end of September) NEVER showed up! This is why I’m one of those people that don’t like to do all my shopping online. It makes me wonder, where did my packages go? Did somebody take them? Are they lost at the post office? Did they get delivered somewhere else and some stranger is now enjoying my purchases? Bah humbug.
I remember the days where I was counting down the days until Christmas! I now cringe when another post is pulled from under Santa’s butt and down the chimney a little closer he comes. And I do this every year. Man, I really can’t wait until December 26th so I can say “That was an amazing, wonderful, and perfect Christmas we just had!”, just like I do every year, hahaha!
So, I just need to remember to keep telling myself that all this worrying and fretting is unnecessary because I know that somehow, some way, I’ll pull it off, just like I always do. I just have to get my crazy ass back to the mall! And FAST! Hahahaha!