Tech-nol-o-what?

Technology…. Even my 7 year old understands it, as she is constantly messaging her friends in broken up, spelled wrong sentences. So, why is it so damn difficult for me? Why does it seem like a different world to me?

Yesterday I received an email from my father that contained 2 attachments that I need to fill out and return asap, but how do I do this is the question? How do I fill out and email back forms that I’d need to print out first and somehow get back into my computer to email back? His answer was to have someone “scan”, them back in… What??? I remember when you would have to mail somebody a form, have them fill it out, and they’d mail it back to you!

Don’t get me wrong, I think the advance in technology is great. I just personally don’t understand it that well. I can email, I can blog, I can even make, edit, and upload videos to my YouTube channel (which took me a while to do, and I’m still learning every day). So why won’t all the other stuff “click”?

I’ve googled to learn, I’ve read books, I’ve done my homework, I still don’t understand. Where’s my cloud? Floating around in internet space? And why can’t I find it most of the time? And how do I retrieve a simple document to fill out and somehow email it back? This, I believe, is why I’m a procrastinator… Because if I don’t understand something, it just sits on the back-burner until I’m ready to tackle it head-on.

I’m going to be 36 next month and I need my 17-year-old daughter, or even my 11-year old, to explain these things to me, or possibly even walk me through things step by step… Will I ever understand it? Or will I always need help? Please god, turn the left side of my brain back on!

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When Did I Get Old?

Screenshot 2017-11-14 at 8.50.32 AM - EditedI’ve realized lately that if I lay down in a certain position for too long, I have a really difficult time getting up. I’ve noticed that some of the lingo my children are using, I don’t understand. I’m starting to DREAD shopping (And I NEVER thought that would happen!). I look forward to the weekends because I can go to bed early and maybe sleep in a little in the morning. When did I get old???

I used to look forward to the endless weekend possibilities. I used to be able to lay in any position I wanted and spring right up. I used to LIVE for shopping! I find myself wondering, what else has changed?

I’ve found wrinkles in places I’ve never thought I’d get them. I’ve noticed a few (and I mean a VERY FEW) grey hairs! The thought of getting a babysitter and going out for a few drinks on the weekend makes me cringe at the thought of a wicked hangover the next morning. When did this start??

But the very worst thing I’ve noticed is the realization that the older I get, the older everyone else gets! It never REALLY occurred to me… I mean, I knew it, but I hadn’t REALLY thought about it. Now it scares the living shit out of me. I’ve lost so many loved ones, and those wounds just keep getting deeper. I’m literally TERRIFIED of losing another loved one. I can’t even think about it because my heart already hurts just by the thought. Now, I’m not stupid, I know how life works… You’re born, you grow up, you get old, and you are taken back to Heaven where you started your journey, it’s the circle of life. That doesn’t mean I have to like it.

Sometimes I wish that I could just freeze time. Nobody ages, nobody leaves this earthly plane. But then I think to myself, for every life taken, one is born again, and so on and so on… I guess it’s just something that I’m going to have to learn to accept. Every year that goes by, and every time a loved one passes away, a piece of my heart goes with them… Will I still have my heart when it’s my turn to pass away? Is this the reason that there are some really cranky elderly out there? Will I become one of them? Or will I be the type of elderly that is sweet, warm, and inviting, not bitter and angry at the world. Only time will tell. And time has started to become my enemy.

Yes, I know that time can be a blessing as well. I get to watch my daughters grow and mature, graduate high school, go on to college, and have a family of their own someday. I get to be a grandmother someday (NOT SOON!) LOL. Those things are what keeps people looking forward to the future, not holding onto the past with dear life.

Now, looking at both ends of the aspect of getting older, there is much to be excited about, but I still have that fear. And the fear of the unknown. I always have the “what if’s” running through my mind. I want to keep everyone in a bubble of safety. But the truth of the matter is that I simply can not. I just have to have faith. Faith that my loved ones will make smart decisions, keep themselves safe, and always be careful. Because the truth of the matter is that one never knows what will happen on a day-to-day basis. Sometimes I feel like an old paranoid woman, and I’m only 35! I don’t even want to think about what my thought process will be like when I’m 45, 55, 65, and so on… If I even make it to 65… I just don’t know. And the unknown is a terrifying thing. I feel like the mother in the movie “The Croods”! “Always be afraid, don’t get curious, survive”, that’s their motto. But that’s not really LIVING, that’s just surviving. And who wants a life like that? I know that I surely don’t.

So I guess I’m getting OLDER….Not quite OLD yet. I’m going to do my best to try to always think positively, suck up every minute of every day, enjoy the little things, LOVE with all that I have and all that I am, and just keep swimming. That’s life, right?

To My Loved Ones

The cut is still so deep,

I know it will truly never heal,

Every day I sit down and I weep,

Because part of my heart it did steal.

 

When God takes away the ones I love,

and angels they become,

They go to a place one can only dream of,

leaving me behind, my heart is numb.

 

I will always carry the memories I contain,

near and dear to my heart,

and even though it causes me pain,

those memories mean we will never truly part.

 

I miss you, I love you, I wish you were here,

and I know in some form you are,

I feel your presence and I do not fear,

Because I know that it is you that is near.

 

 

I love and miss you.

How to Paint “Dirty Pour” One-of-a-kind Paintings!

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Sometimes being an artist is scary. “What if I spend all that time, effort, and supplies, and it doesn’t come out right?” I believe that there are NO MISTAKES when it comes to the art world, only creative masterpieces! You can literally throw paint with a cup at a wall and it could be considered bold, brave, and artistic! One of my FAVORITE types of things to do is paint, and I’ve learned a new technique that just blows my mind! Some call it a “Dirty Pour”. Now, what you will need for this project is:

  • A stretched canvas (this works best for beginners)
  • Acrylic paints (I usually choose four to five colors)
  • Floetrol (A latex based paint additive)
  • Multiple plastic “throw away” cups
  • Popsicle sticks/tongue depressors
  • A cup with water in it (Not necessary but some prefer to water the paint mix down)

The photo pictured above is an example of the result of this amazing technique, and one of my favorite pieces that I have done! It’s crazy the things each individual will see in one painting! This is how I create my paintings:

First, I set my canvas up on 4 upside down plastic cups, this will help the air flow while in the drying phase. Make sure that you have a protective plastic covering under the painting as well, as paint will drip off your paintings while in movement. Next, I pick my color choices and get one cup for each color. I usually eyeball it on how much I will need depending on the canvas size (remember, the Floetrol will almost double the amount). I pour each color into its own cup. Then, I add about the same amount/a little under of Floetrol to each cup. Each color will have to be mixed thoroughly using a popsicle stick until a watered down consistency is made. If you choose to add a small amount of water, as in a couple drops, to your mixture, you can do so. Now comes the fun part! Taking one empty cup, pour each individual color into the cup. You can be creative and swirl the colors, or just pour one after another. Now, either pick up your canvas and hold it over the cup to flip it, or just quickly flip your cup onto the canvas. Gently, pick up the upside down cup so that the paint flows freely onto your canvas. Be prepared to get your hands colorful! Next, hold your canvas and gently tilt it in all directions, depending on where you want your colors to flow. If it does not take up the entire canvas (and some of the time it won’t, not a big deal) just repeat the process for another flip cup. You can also use several tools to scrape up the paint that has dripped off your canvas and onto your plastic protective surface and add it to your canvas. Remember, there are NO MISTAKES. It’s all beautiful! Continue to tilt the canvas until you are satisfied. Be creative! You can let it naturally drizzle down the sides, or you can control it with a paint brush or popsicle stick. You can also take the single colors (if you still have some left in their cups or want to mix more) and gently pour it along your canvas, making patterns or barriers. The sky is the limit! Now, if you want more “Cells” (the circular spots randomly appearing in your painting), carefully use a craft heat gun or small heat torch and in a semi-quick sweeping motion move it over the paint along your canvas. You don’t want to do this slowly as you may burn your art. And, TADA! Set your canvas on the 4 cups to dry if you are content with the way it came out. You can mess and create with it and make designs or patterns, add glitter, use a toothpick to swirl colors, whatever your preference, but you don’t want to continuously do this for a long period of time as it will start to dry and it will not have that smooth appearance anymore (however, it is easily fixable if it doesn’t). Once your masterpiece is dry, you can add resin to give it that glass-like appearance, where the colors will just “pop”! But resin is an entirely new blog, as it can be difficult to use if you haven’t used it before. With resin, the possibilities are endless as well! I will make sure to do a tutorial on resin for you in the upcoming days!

I hope that you have enjoyed my method of how to do a “dirty pour”, and I am excited for you to go out there and start creating! Here are some other photos of my work, I really hope that you like them! Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this. And remember, (As I say at the end of each YouTube vlog), treat each other with love, the world needs more of it!

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Oh yeah! You can use this method on other things besides a canvas or craft board as well! I used a wooden box with a lid, which can be purchased from any craft store. One of the colors I used was an acrylic paint that was a blue/green in color, and as different light hits it, it changes color to purple! It’s amazing what paint colors are out there nowadays! Color changing, UV paint, metallic, opalescent, etc! Just have fun with it!!!

Methods To Earn Money From Home

Today, I’ve decided to write an article to help those who are “Stay at home” parents and are looking for a way to make a little extra income from their own home. I know how difficult it can be, and I understand 100% how it feels. So, if this helps at least just ONE person today, I’m happy!

Methods To Earn Money At Home

We all know that being a stay at home mama/papa bear can be a challenge. It’s not all just cleaning, cooking, preparing, recitals, conferences, and pulling your fighting children apart by their clothes while they swing at each other and accidentally hit you in the face! We need to somehow bring in an income as well if we can help it at all! There are quite a few options out there, but don’t be fooled by the scams and get rich quick schemes! They don’t work, nor have they ever! I’m always saying to myself “Don’t get scammed Rayne, learn from your mistakes”, and believe me, I’ve made my share of them! In my experience, I’ve found a few honest and productive online ways to bring in a bit of income for my family! There are multiple methods of earning an income at home, but here are the few that I use, and it works for me. It could work for you too!

The first and foremost way that I make money is through eBay! As a hoarder/collector/bargain hunter, I’ve found it easy to accumulate items that I could sell! I’ve been selling on eBay for many many years, and accumulated rooms full of items to sell! Every time that I find a deal I snatch it up! I personally LOVE yard sales and flea markets! You never know what you are going to find! Just make sure that you are up to date on what items are valuable and what items are just going to just sit there unsold! And every once in a while I’ll find a CRAZY good deal at Walmart that I can’t pass up! I always have my phone out to quickly hop on eBay and check out the competitive prices on items! I’ve learned throughout the years that some things just aren’t worth it, and some are! For example, I found a hard to find Despicable Me large poseable action figure of Gru at Walmart for $3! That’s an insanely good deal considering that they are selling on eBay for over $40! I had to grab quite a few! Now, I’ve noticed that the items that sell best (for me, anyway) on eBay are toys and vintage jewelry! Also, vintage marbles are a hot sell too, you just have to know what you are looking for! From what I’ve noticed, the big bucks seem to be from selling RARE and hard to find items such as vintage beanie babies, carnival glass, coins, novels, memorabilia, etc! If you are unsure as to what is sought after, you can pick up a copy of Warman’s Antiques & Collectibles 2017 (Fiftieth Edition) by Noah Fleisher! These books have really helped educate me through the years! Remember, knowledge is the key! People don’t want to purchase junk! One of the best things about eBay is that it has a wide range of categories to sell, as opposed to other sites, such as Etsy. Which brings me to my next way of earning money!

Etsy has a smaller range of categories for you to sell, but the positive thing about Etsy (and one of my favorite reasons) is that sellers take pride in their items as most of them are handmade and created by YOU, the artist! It is an amazing way to get your artwork/creations out there into the world! Etsy is a close-knit community that supports one another as opposed to the competitive drive that eBay has! I have had an Etsy site for a few years, and even though I don’t have even a quarter of the number of items for sale on there as I do eBay, I take pride in the fact that I created those items! You can find sellers on Etsy selling only handmade jewelry, knitted items, handmade greeting cards, scrapbooking material, unique paintings, etc! Etsy also prides itself in selling antique/vintage items as well. You can also expect to make more money on an item because it is a one of a kind, and there are ALWAYS collectors out there looking! It just may take some time for them to find it!

Another way of making some money online is through survey websites! Now, you won’t make a lot of money at a time as each survey can bring in anywhere from $1.00 to $5.00, but with time to fill them out and perseverance, it can bring in a few extra bucks while you are waiting for your other items to sell (and believe me, they will!).

You can also make money by signing up with Ebates! Using this link: https://www.ebates.com/r/RAYNET101?eeid=28187 , (just copy and paste) when you sign up you will automatically get a welcoming $10 bonus! After that, whenever you shop online, you will actually MAKE money! I’m already up to $16.87! Hey, every little bit helps, right?

My point is that there is always a way to bring in a little (or a lot) of extra income from the luxury of your own home, with just a phone or laptop in front of you! You’d be surprised at how easy it really is! But, don’t forget, even the stay at home parent needs a day or two off from the business aspect of your life! My fiance just told me last night, “You need to take a vacation, just because you don’t travel to a 9-5 job, that doesn’t mean that you don’t need a few days off to clear your mind and come back with a fresh outlook on things.” Usually, I would come back at him with “But I won’t feel productive if I take a day off”, but I put thought into it, and I realized, he is right (I won’t ever let him know that though, LOL). I don’t realize that I tend to get overwhelmed, and a bit short tempered with the family in the evenings. And everybody knows, a happy parent equals a happy family!

An Important Fact to Remember!

A happy PARENT equals a happy FAMILY!

The positives of each source to make an income!

eBay
Etsy
Surveys
A wide variety of categories to sell
One of a kind items
A few minutes for each survey
Selling RARE and hard to find items
Close supportive community
Easy to answer questions
Fun searching at yard sales/flea markets
Getting your own creations into the world
No limit to how many you can do

I’m ALWAYS on the hunt for a good bargain!

QUOTE

“There are a few categories that remain iconic in the collecting world. Coca-Cola collectibles cross many interests, as do folk art, Asian antiques, and Tiffany designs, to just name a few”.”

-Noah Fleisher

Methods To Earn Money At Home

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We all know that being a stay at home mama/papa bear can be a challenge. It’s not all just cleaning, cooking, preparing, recitals, conferences, and pulling your fighting children apart by their clothes while they swing at each other and accidentally hit you in the face! We need to somehow bring in an income as well if we can help it at all! There are quite a few options out there, but don’t be fooled by the scams and get rich quick schemes! They don’t work, nor have they ever! I’m always saying to myself “Don’t get scammed Rayne, learn from your mistakes”, and believe me, I’ve made my share of them! In my experience, I’ve found a few honest and productive online ways to bring in a bit of income for my family!

The first and foremost way that I make money is through eBay! As a hoarder/collector/bargain hunter, I’ve found it easy to accumulate items that I could sell! I’ve been selling on eBay for many many years, and accumulated rooms full of items to sell! Every time that I find a deal I snatch it up! I personally LOVE yard sales and flea markets! You never know what you are going to find! Just make sure that you are up to date on what items are valuable and what items are just going to just sit there unsold! And every once in a while I’ll find a CRAZY good deal at Walmart that I can’t pass up! I always have my phone out to quickly hop on eBay and check out the competitive prices on items! I’ve learned throughout the years that some things just aren’t worth it, and some are! For example, I found a hard to find Despicable Me large poseable action figure of Gru at Walmart for $3! That’s an insanely good deal considering that they are selling on eBay for over $40! I had to grab quite a few! Now, I’ve noticed that the items that sell best (for me, anyway) on eBay are toys and vintage jewelry! Also, vintage marbles are a hot sell too, you just have to know what you are looking for! From what I’ve noticed, the big bucks seem to be from selling RARE and hard to find items such as vintage beanie babies, carnival glass, coins, novels, memorabilia, etc! If you are unsure as to what is sought after, you can pick up a copy of Warman’s Antiques & Collectibles 2017 (Fiftieth Edition) by Noah Fleisher! These books have really helped educate me through the years! Remember, knowledge is the key! People don’t want to purchase junk! One of the best things about eBay is that it has a wide range of categories to sell, as opposed to other sites, such as Etsy. Which brings me to my next way of earning money!

Etsy has a smaller range of categories for you to sell, but the positive thing about Etsy (and one of my favorite reasons) is that sellers take pride in their items as most of them are handmade and created by YOU, the artist! It is an amazing way to get your artwork/creations out there into the world! Etsy is a close-knit community that supports one another as opposed to the competitive drive that eBay has! I have had an Etsy site for a few years, and even though I don’t have even a quarter of the number of items for sale on there as I do eBay, I take pride in the fact that I created those items! You can find sellers on Etsy selling only handmade jewelry, knitted items, handmade greeting cards, scrapbooking material, unique paintings, etc! Etsy also prides itself in selling antique/vintage items as well. You can also expect to make more money on an item because it is a one of a kind, and there are ALWAYS collectors out there looking! It just may take some time for them to find it!

Another way of making some money online is through survey websites! Now, you won’t make a lot of money at a time as each survey can bring in anywhere from $1.00 to $5.00, but with time to fill them out and perseverance, it can bring in a few extra bucks while you are waiting for your other items to sell (and believe me, they will!).

My point is that there is always a way to bring in a little (or a lot) of extra income from the luxury of your own home, with just a phone or laptop in front of you! You’d be surprised at how easy it really is! But, don’t forget, even the stay at home parent needs a day or two off from the business aspect of your life! My fiance just told me last night, “You need to take a vacation, just because you don’t travel to a 9-5 job, that doesn’t mean that you don’t need a few days off to clear your mind and come back with a fresh outlook on things.” Usually, I would come back at him with “But I won’t feel productive if I take a day off”, but I put thought into it, and I realized, he is right (I won’t ever let him know that though, LOL). I don’t realize that I tend to get overwhelmed, and a bit short tempered with the family in the evenings. And everybody knows, a happy parent equals a happy family!

 

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I bargain hunt as much as I possibly can!

“YouTube’s New Policy and My Feelings About It”

This is something that has been on my mind and I had to share it. YouTube has started a new policy that if you don’t have 1,000 subscribers and 4,000 views by February 20th, they demonetize your videos on your channel. This means that your videos have no chance of making any money, until you hit that subscriber mark and reapply for video monetization. Now, it’s not like I’m making a lot of money ( I think I’ve accumulated $4.12 in about a year, LOL), but everybody that works hard on making videos, editing them, and uploading them, is striving towards a goal. I started making videos without even planning on it, one day my daughter and I were just messing around with my phone camera, and when I went to share it with my family, there was the “YouTube’ option, and I thought, “eh, what the heck, why not”, thus becoming a huge passion of mine. I LOVE making videos, I love the creativity and fun, and my girls love to do it with me. I never even thought of making money from it, until months later when I realized that millions of people make a good living just from YouTube alone! Now, I am what I call “technology illiterate”, and have a bit of difficulty with the editing and technological aspect of it. I just like making videos, making memories, and engaging with my audience. Some of my videos have thousands of views, one over 15,000! But the subscriber aspect… I just don’t get it. Why have I been teetering around 160-170 subscribers for 6 months? Everybody says “Once you hit 100, it’s like a snowball effect, you gain like crazy”… Ummm, no. That just doesn’t happen… Unless you are amazing and go viral… Which some go viral over things like “eating a cookie” or a puppet with a pencil up his nose that smacks his diaper… WHAT?! Yeah. So I’m sitting here wondering, what is the secret? Is there some sort of magic formula that I don’t know about? If I’m putting in the effort and the time (and it takes me hours to edit one video), why do people watch but don’t want to subscribe? What harm would it hurt to just hit that little red subscribe button? It boggles my mind. I’d like to think that all this time and money used investing in my channel will someday lead me somewhere, will be worth it, and I’d be able to make some of that money back, but the reality of the situation is that I just don’t know. I will continue to make videos because that is one of my passions, and I love the fun I have with my children while doing it. I will continue to grow and learn. I will continue to strive towards a goal, because that is what pushes us through life, that is what makes us stronger and opens up new doorways to places you never thought you’d go! I’m sorry if it sounds as if I’m rambling, I probably am… but I’ve been thinking about this for quite some time, and had to get it out there. Thank you for taking out the time to read this entry on my blog page, I really appreciate it. And if you like my YouTube channel, “Rayne Evans”, please subscribe. What’s it going to hurt to just check it out, I have over 75 videos, and a variety of topics and different types of videos. Let me know what you think. I’d love your opinion on the subject! And don’t forget, treat each other with love, the world needs more of it! TTYLScreenshot 2018-01-26 at 6.13.10 PM - Edited

Why Do Men Think They Are Always Right?!

    MEN! Why do they ALWAYS think they are right about EVERYTHING?! (Not all men, but most LOL) About 7 years ago my fiance (about to be my ex if he doesn’t quit his shit) started a system for our finances. Every Friday he would give me approximately 80% of his paycheck and I was to take care of the bills and finances on time along with making sure we had everything we needed for our family. Now, 7 years later, and he states that I “dole” out the money. WHAT?! Why do men throw a tantrum like a fucking baby and get angry over a system that THEY had come up with from the very beginning?! Why is money always a soft spot for them?! And why do they always think that they are right?

There’s scientific evidence pointing to why men often think they’re always right and it has to do with their testosterone levels, a new study reveals. According to researchers, testosterone, the sex hormone that stimulates the development of male secondary characteristics, is connected with a greater reliance on gut instincts and less self-reflection. In other words, men are more impulsive when making decisions.

If my fiance was in charge of the finances, we would be homeless, living in a cardboard box on the side of the road. Yet he truly believes that he could do ALL that I do to keep this household up and running smoothly, and I truly believe he’s absolutely out of his fucking mind! 

    Studies show that men with excessive amounts of testosterone are quicker to make snap judgments on brain teasers where your initial guess is usually wrong . The testosterone is either inhibiting the process of mentally checking your work or increasing the intuitive feeling that ‘I’m definitely right.’ The study of men and testosterone is one of the largest of its kind and included 243 males who were randomly selected. They received a dose of testosterone gel or placebo gel before being given a cognitive reflection test. Some of the subjects were also given a math-based task for participant engagement, motivation level and basic math skills. Results revealed that the group that received testosterone scored significantly lower than the placebo group. On average, those participants answered 20 percent fewer questions correctly. The group also gave incorrect answers more quickly, and correct answers more slowly than the placebo group. testosterone increasing confidence. The hormone is thought to generally enhance the male drive for social status. It works through confidence enhancement. If a man is more confident, he’ll feel like he’s right and will not have enough self-doubt to correct his mistakes. Thus, men always being right!

    I truly now believe that my fiance is just made up of 95% testosterone and 5% shit. LOL! But seriously, are his constant arguments necessary?! And he blames ALL our problems on me as well, like I’m the cause of everything that goes wrong… Can any other women out there relate to this? If so, please let me know, and also how you deal with your man’s bullshit! I could use the advice/suggestions! Thank you for taking out the time to read this, and remember, treat each other with love! The world needs more of it!

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What Is This That I Am Feeling?

I am a worrisome person, always have been, always will be. But in the recent passing months, I’ve realized that my worrying about the things I can not control are starting to take a toll. I worry about if somebody else is scared, sad, mad, upset in any way, and that is a constant burden on my shoulders to carry around. I can’t be everywhere at the same time to make sure that the people I love (and even sometimes strangers) are happy and content. Now, how do I do that? How do I stop feeling what others are feeling all the time? Can I shut it off? Is it a gift of some sort? Am I a sensitive medium? I just don’t know. I DO KNOW that I indeed do have some psychic abilities, for instance, I’ve been able to see spirits since an extremely young age. I can even channel them, which is so extremely draining and emotionally tiresome that I put that wall half way back up. But my feelings of other’s feelings? What is that and how do I tone it down a bit? 

My grandfather, for example, was transferred from one hospital yesterday to an even further one from my parents, and I cried because I knew he was nervous, scared, and unprepared for the oh so sudden drastic change.

My mother, she was so upset over that transfer, I could feel her tears from 350 miles away, her fear of not seeing him on a daily basis anymore, and her panick and anxiety of the whole situation.

My sister, who didn’t get a chance to go see my grandfather because of a communication misunderstanding when I offered to bring her with me to go and see him. I can still feel her anger and blame that it was all my fault she didn’t get to go. I can practically hear the venomous words spewing from her mouth on how what a horrible and insensitive sister I am. Which was never my intentions what so ever, but if you knew my sister, my words go through deaf ears.

My daughter, whose birthday is today. I let her stay home from school and as usual, my mind goes to “how can I make this a really special day for her”. I NEVER want my children to feel like they are NOT the most important, special, and amazing children in the world to me. 

I NEED to have feelings of serenity. I need to stop worrying. I need to just do the best that I can and hope that it is enough. I HATE confrontation. I hate when someone is upset or angry with me. I always like to keep the peace… But for how long? There is always somebody that isn’t going to be happy with me. Like my Aunt recently told me, “I can’t please everyone, it just doesn’t happen.” I’d like to think that I could, but that is the reality of life.

I’m always going to wear my heart on my sleeve. I am always going to feel what other’s are feeling, and I can’t change that. I can only hope that I can assist in some way to calm their emotions and feelings. That I can help put their minds at ease, in some way, shape, or form. 

I just had that on my mind, and had to get it out there. This blog may not even make any sense to some of you. But those are my thoughts of the morning. A penny for my thoughts, anyone?

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this. Remember, treat each other with love and kindness, the world needs more of it.